Hey hey sweetie pies! I hope you all have been well. As most of you already know, my birthday was on the 16th of this month. Given that I was 7 months pregnant this time last year for my birthday – I wanted to go all out. Instead of treating myself last year, I was focused on getting things for Amara. I am honestly so blessed because this past year brought so many changes to my life! I figured that I would take today’s post to reflect and share the things that I splurged on myself as well as a few gifts from others.
Big Life Changes
I got engaged to my best friend surrounded by all of my family. I also carried and brought life into the world! Having Amara literally changed my life! Even though I wasn’t imagining myself with a baby at this place in my life – I simply couldn’t imagine my life without her now. It is simply mind blowing to think that I now have a 10 month old baby girl and preparing for a wedding. Even more so challenging with running a business.
Battling Internal Demons
I never thought I would be someone who would struggle with depression, suicidal thoughts, insomnia and anxiety but that’s exactly where I found myself weeks after delivering Amara. It was unlike anything that I’ve ever experienced. I couldn’t leave my home. I was terrified of any and everything. My emotions controlled everything. I often would let fear and negative self-talk interfere with even daily mundane tasks. It was the absolute worse. I have had made strides since then. I am happy to say that day by day I am overcoming obstacles that used to stop me in my tracks. I am proud to be making it out on the other side instead of succumbing to those negative voices.
In this year, I have stepped out of my comfort zone and took a leap of faith to make my dreams a reality. I started my boutique as well as monetizing my various services from styling to choreographing. I have invested so many years into others’ businesses that I felt that it was time to start betting on myself. Everything going on with covid I believe catapulted me into this opportunity to create a name for myself.
Self-love is such an extensive journey. My body has gone through so many changes over the years but this one has been the most dramatic. Having a baby changes your body in so many ways that you never know until after you have your baby. It has been a challenging journey to love and accept my current body. I have been working overtime to be kinder to myself and remind myself that things take time. I definitely have to remember to give myself some grace. It took almost a year to create and deliver a baby. Rome wasn’t built in a day and neither will my post-partum body.
Closer to God
With everything going on in the world today, it is even more imperative for me to continue strengthening my relationship with Christ. I also find myself practicing self-care activities and raising my vibrations. I do my best to pray daily and meditate for myself, loved ones and my sanity. I believe that we are all searching for something/someone to believe in.
Thank you guys so much for all of the birthday love! I truly appreciate it. Stay tuned for my next post. Make sure to subscribe to the email list so you’re notified as soon as a post goes public.
“A birth-date is a reminder to celebrate the life as well as to update the life.” ~ Amit Kalantri